Sunday, October 26, 2014

I was a writer before I knew it.

  I say that because I see now that I should of realized my passion a long time ago. I viewed the people in my life as characters. Each with their own flaws. Characters that need to overcome things, and I feel compelled to figure out what type of person they were. I had cast protagonist, antagonist, dynamic characters, etc. I over analyzed peoples decisions, and felt compelled to know their thought processes.
  Often times this would preset a problem. No one wants some crazy person digging into their heads, and trying to "write" what they thing should happen in your life. This leads most to view me as a "Neb nose".  I have also been called a "Drama Queen" for the urge I have to be right smack in the middle of fights people were having. Even if it is just to hear what happened, and what the reactions were. It's unavoidable for me when I feel like this is my story. Which in a sense is true. My life is my story.....until I decide to dissect my "characters." Then of course it's a different situation.
  I have, at times, gotten mad when people don't take my advise. I have a hard time accepting that what I say didn't go. That is because when you write a problem into a story it goes the way you plan it for your character. When you view those closest to you as characters sometimes you find yourself treating them that way.
  I was a writer before I knew it, because even before I began to write I was treating everything like a story. It's a character flaw I am currently working on. :)

Monday, October 13, 2014

being a better person

     As a mom I know how to multi-task. As a military wife I know how to keep myself busy. What I am not is patient. I dislike waiting for my favorite author to release the next book in a series. I dislike waiting rooms for appointments, and I very much dislike waiting on people in general. At the same time I get agitated when people don't wait for me. It's a huge character flaw I am aware of.
     Thinking of my own flaws I started to pick out the flaws of others. I'd like to say it was because of a deep insight I have, but to be honest it was easier to see faults in others then in myself. I realize that everyone has a flaw. Even if you don't know what it is you do have one. If you honestly think you don't then perhaps it is denial.
    Flaws don't make people good or bad, and they don't make you better then someone else.They just show that we are human. Flaws are who we are just as much as our strengths.
    Without flaws we wouldn't have the chance to grow, or change. Flaws let us us make mistakes. Without those we would never learn.
     The trick is to see the flaws in others yet accept them anyway. Only then can you be accepted by others regardless of your flaws.
     When I hear someone complain about someone else I remind them that everyone has that one thing, that one flaw. It lets them remember that no one is perfect.